bondage

Today has been a rough day....(Saturday, rather).  I went to a group session and then to counseling afterwards.  I feel like I have regressed ten years!  Why is that?  I know more now than then, yet I seem to get deeper and deeper in the muck.  A friend told me that she believes the people who would 'step up' are those I wouldn't have imagined doing so.  I made one friend last week and she seems to understand....we are all in this together.  I really dread going into work this week...everyone is in the office. :(  No support there!

I had an interview with DOC this week; however, I wasn't able to make the times offered.  I wasn't really what she wanted in a candidate, so I basically bowed out and asked her to remember me another time.  

I have been reading a couple of interesting books...I hope that God will use this experience to allow me to resolve the demons that tie me down. I feel I have a counselor who understands me and is more than willing to work with me ($$). I think I worried him.  LOL
I can't have a healthy relationship with anyone, unless I have one with myself!  I have been running all this time....This will be a tough year, but I am hopeful.

Budget Deal Sacrifices Wolves, Knifes Endangered Species Act

Budget Deal Sacrifices Wolves, Knifes Endangered Species Act

April....

Today was an absolute gorgeous day...sunny, windy (blustery!) and I spent some time by the Ohio River for a little R & R....The day started out hectic as I was late volunteering for church, but seemed to be on time for the brunt of the cleanup.  This will be an interesting day today (Monday) as the incoming severe weather makes its way into my area.  How I wish I wasn't working! ;)
I am going to spend my 'working' night getting ready to order stuff for my graduation on the 30th!  I can't wait, but hate to waste the expense for 25 invitations when I don't have that many to invite!  I guess it's more for a souvenir for those who suffered with me from time to time. :)
I will get off of here for now....hopefully, this will be a more productive week! I need to make myself feel it anyway!!

2010 in retrospect....

I don't normally 'blog'; however, I know it's supposed to be therapeutic to just sit down and write what's on your mind.  Granted, I will spare the details, but perhaps, I can create a 'mood'.

My accomplishments I can feel good about- finally out of school!  Will walk in April for my masters degree...next, I have been appointed "accreditation manager" over the training academy and have been to one conference regarding  learning new ideas; met some awesome people, and had an overall good time networking and visiting San Antonio!  I get to go to the CAMA conference in Miami....can't wait for that- like my graduation present in a way, since I hit the stage for my diploma and hit the ground running to catch my flight!
I hope another positive decision in my life is to return to church...volunteered today and actually got to hear a little of the sermon.  I miss Bob's positive messages and the way he delivers.  Definitely need to make time for me and what I need to do...

Well, that's all for now.  I am working and hard at it....lol...but this will be a long night/day as I turn around and work a full day after this.  No wonder I can sleep all day!  :)
Take care and ttyl!