Today has been a rough day....(Saturday, rather). I went to a group session and then to counseling afterwards. I feel like I have regressed ten years! Why is that? I know more now than then, yet I seem to get deeper and deeper in the muck. A friend told me that she believes the people who would 'step up' are those I wouldn't have imagined doing so. I made one friend last week and she seems to understand....we are all in this together. I really dread going into work this week...everyone is in the office. :( No support there!
I had an interview with DOC this week; however, I wasn't able to make the times offered. I wasn't really what she wanted in a candidate, so I basically bowed out and asked her to remember me another time.
I have been reading a couple of interesting books...I hope that God will use this experience to allow me to resolve the demons that tie me down. I feel I have a counselor who understands me and is more than willing to work with me ($$). I think I worried him. LOL
I can't have a healthy relationship with anyone, unless I have one with myself! I have been running all this time....This will be a tough year, but I am hopeful.
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